BABY BOY !!!

So today was defiantly the Best day of my Life! I found out that this Lil baby that's been swimming in my belly is a Beautiful Baby Boy :) I'm sooooooo Excited because this baby will be more than Taken care of. I'm soo happy, its getting close and now I'm turning nervous.. Curious if I'm going to be a good mommy. I hope so :) God has blessed me with what I've been wishing and praying for.. Sharing The Ultrasound with My Mommy and My child's father was a blessing. He defiantly stepped up and I know now that he has a little man he's even more happier. Now its time for me to shine and prepare for this Lil man without distractions ANYWHERE. this Love thing is fading and respect is no longer being given so when I'm put into that situation that's when you let go.. Well today is a short blog...

NEW FOUND LOVE

Panera Bread has just became my new found love. :) You would never think that a place like this would actually fulfill you eating wise and emotionally. I had a great interview today and it defiantly landed me into the next process which I'm very excited about. As time goes by you realize that as you lose friends you also gain a few. This past week I have got close to people I never imagined to get close too and it makes me really excited because there are people who feel the same as me. I am starting to realize that the only way I can stay positive is to surround myself with positive people. No I will not change overnight but I do see my progress on this whole new outlook on life. Becoming more honest with myself and others now accepting myself flaws and all. I am actually blessed with the people god has put into my life and actually find myself smiling more. I guess you can say right now I'm comparing myself to a " starving artist." Someone who is willing to go above and beyond to find true happiness in anything I do. Even if I'm the only person reading this or their are people actually taking the time to read my blogs line by line, by each blog a little piece of me unravels. Hopefully as time goes on I will be the lady my mother raised me to be and I will be the WOMAN I always dreamed to be. As of now I will continue to redirect my angle of life into something I can look back on and defiantly smile about. :)

Travie McCoy: Billionaire ft. Bruno Mars [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

This Song is EXTREMELY INSPIRATIONAL as a girl that grew up from not much to being stable to falling back into a wishy washy status. This song gives you that push to be the best that you can be. As I prepare for all the things in my life I try to not focus on being so lonely with having someone in my life. Trying to be Independent so that when I don't speak with that person I won't go INSANE! Ha ha its Crazy because I'm holding myself back from screaming and blowing that person phone up with a TON of text messages. Its crazy how when you feel for someone past your your own boundaries you just don't want to be without them. I honestly believe that is my weakness: LOVE and wanting to be loved. Being a Billionaire doesn't just mean becoming rich within Money but also can be Rich within Life, Love, and Positivity. We shall see where My BILLIONAIRE JOURNEY shall lead me .

Productivity

Today for me was AWESOME! Definately landed an interview! Ha Great! Filled out more Apps and basically made my day very Productive. The more Productivity you add to your life the more better you feel and the more the positivity grows within you. As the time comes near I find myself scrounging around trying to make this space comfortable for my lil baby. My mother stated to me the baby will be fine and that I know because One I'm following God's Path and Two I have the best family in the world. As time goes by people don't realize how much things change within a month or even a day. So my attitude remains positive :) and today will be a short blog.

Positivity

Yesterday at church one of my wonderful pastors preached about having a Positive Back to School Attitude. Basically preaching about how a positive energy and attitude will impact not only you but those around you. He also compared positivity as walking the path of God. Lately I've been really down because I'm really not where I want to be in life because I had to put school on hold and I've been out of work for about 3 months now. Trying so hard to find work and getting absolutely NO WHERE! Till this day I still have had no luck and I'm thinking that it's because I've been so negative with things instead of being positive. So I vowed yesterday to be as Positive as I can be so I can present myself as a Positive Woman. Maybe through this journey of positivity I can find a job. Pretty soon in the month of January I will be blessed with a beautiful baby that's roasting in my oven right now. I want the best for my baby. I want my baby to have a stable environment that I provided. I'm busting my tush to be "all I can be." Hopefully all of this hard work will pay off.

Eat Pray Love

Just got in from seeing a very inspiring movie : Eat Pray Love. The Moral of the story was very very catching which was to always Stay Balanced with yourself inside and out. To always stay focused and make room for good eating worshipping your god and giving love a chance. My mother stated to me that seeing this movie should give me some type of motivation while I walk down this path. To be completely honest it did, motivation to write and explore all the options that are soon to rise. One part of the movie she was afraid, afraid to love and give up that divorce past she had once endured. In a way I can relate to that because I've been there just without all the Legal Obligation of Marriage and such. Fighting for something I just knew in my mind and heart wasn't going to work. It took me years to get over it and to be honest I don't know if I'm totally over it. Its kind of like taking a main artery out of your body and expect it to work without the blood and veins pumping through it. Somehow I managed to just get over it " Miss it, Love it, Send my love and Drop it." So now that movie was kind of like an light bulb going off in my head to thoroughly enjoy life. Whether its me being home or walking around my neighborhood to watching birds fly in the sky to even children playing in the yard. Just Me, Myself & I enjoying life the way I want too.

D I V E R S I T Y

One Thing I've Learned in life was to never judge a book by its cover. People fail to realize no matter race sexuality or gender everyone is HUMAN you know like you. This video I posted is kind of one of my happy places with close friends. Every now and then when your in a slump its always good to go back to a time where you just couldn't stop laughing and where you could just be yourself. As I grow as not only and Adult but also as an Individual I've realized to never sell my self short and to be open to ALL backgrounds. As I go through this pregnancy I plan on sharing what I've learned to my unborn show him/her that life is filled with opportunities.  As I go through this path of life god has taught me to give everyone a chance. Even though now this world is pretty much " Every Man for Themselves." I plan on somehow sharing My energy to those who follow me and also those who encounter my presence that when your with me, " Every person will be for Each Other."  So Take the world  D I V E R S I TY not as something so lightly but more as something that can change your life and possibly your outlook on life.